I've spent the last 6 months, except for a couple of 5-day breaks, constantly under the influence of weed (a few J's a day, sometimes many many many). ?I've had the best time of my life, and made some of my best friends. ?However...
I've now officially given up weed. ?Haven't toked for the last 3 days (wow - long time! ?I'm at home for a few weeks and don't know where to get any here), and I don't intend to for at least a couple of months. ?The past week or so I've realised how badly it's affected me mentally - I've been given a warning that I'm gonna be kicked out of uni if I don't start working and emotionally I'm a wreck at the moment - paranoid that my friends don't like me, depressed for no particular reason etc. ?I'm not sure how easy it's gonna be when I get back to the UK, where all my friends, both at uni and from school etc. smoke weed at least occasionally (and most do regularly), but I'd like to think I can still keep the same friends while not smoking regularly as well...
I cant recall ever having a bad experience from weed, but recently I've been able to remember so little from when I've been stoned that I really don't know what I've been doing, and especially when drunk as well, I can't even remember meeting some people who claim to know me fairly well, which is disturbing to say the least.
I can't really remeber what my point was, but at least now I've announced that I'm quitting, and err... yeah; I can't remember what my point was.
The paranoia and depression sux balls.
I used to smoke the shit outta my lungs everyday for a year till i came back to dubai. been clean for about a year and a half now, and the depression and paranoia sorta just faded away. I suppose it took me at least 9 or 10 months to recover.