I wish I knew someone that sold it/grew it, but alas I'm 16, and have to buy it from a friend of a dealer who is some low-level dealer prolly.
Buying $20 bucks sometime soon ;D (maybe $40)
paying sucks.
I smoked for about a year. It had gradually turned me into a lethargic, grumpy, moody individual. I didn't really realize what it had done to me until I stopped smoking. People would generally piss me off for no reason, I felt like a xenophobic (someone who hates people for no reason.).
Precisedly the reason I gave up. I went to a counsellor to talk about my pangs of anxiety and paranoia, mood swings, exactly what you described. I only needed to go once, and he told me to smoke less, or try to give up. Which I did. Initially it was hard, as my housemates were still pretty hardcore smokers, and when I used to smoke every day for the last 4-5 years its a hard habit to break. But after 3 months I found I really didnt need to smoke, and I havent had a spliff for 18 months. I have relapsed occasionally, but the appeal just isnt there anymore. I do feel a lot better these days, I can remember things I did a lot better now than when I used to smoke, but my short term memory is still a little hazy. Guess thats the consequence of smoking like a trooper for 5 years
Now I just have a chronic cigarette habit, but thats just fine with me :tongue:
I felt like a xenophobic (someone who hates people for no reason.)xenophobic
adj : suffering from xenophobia; having abnormal fear or hatred of the strange or foreign
i believe the word you're looking for is "misanthrope"
misanthrope
n : someone who dislikes people in general
xenophobia also means hating people you dont know, for no reason.
;)
I smoked for about a year. It had gradually turned me into a lethargic, grumpy, moody individual. I didn't really realize what it had done to me until I stopped smoking. People would generally piss me off for no reason, I felt like a xenophobic (someone who hates people for no reason.).Precisedly the reason I gave up. I went to a counsellor to talk about my pangs of anxiety and paranoia, mood swings, exactly what you described. I only needed to go once, and he told me to smoke less, or try to give up. Which I did. Initially it was hard, as my housemates were still pretty hardcore smokers, and when I used to smoke every day for the last 4-5 years its a hard habit to break. But after 3 months I found I really didnt need to smoke, and I havent had a spliff for 18 months. I have relapsed occasionally, but the appeal just isnt there anymore. I do feel a lot better these days, I can remember things I did a lot better now than when I used to smoke, but my short term memory is still a little hazy. Guess thats the consequence of smoking like a trooper for 5 years
Now I just have a chronic cigarette habit, but thats just fine with me ?:tongue:
The short term memory is indeed a bitch. I still have some leftovers of it as well, I forget the wierdest things, and almost everytime I type i end up skipping words, so i have to re-read what i've typed just to make sure.
Glad I've broken the habit though, even if I do miss it at times.
I still retain some of the moodiness but im beginning to think thats just me being myself.