However much my mother tells me to the contrary, I'm pretty sure I'm not that special or unique, so I thought a few of you might be able to empathise with my complete lack of a raison d'etre. Basically I just started my 2nd year at uni (college) and don't really see my life going anywhere. Clearly I could do what's expected and get a degree, then a job, then old and then retire (or die at some point), but I'm really not that excited by the whole thing. So yeah, I think now would be the time to compare this post to my life in that I don't have a clue where its going or why I even started it. I did have a point earlier, something like "where can I get some of that ambition stuff that everyone else seems to have so much of?" or maybe "is there a cure for apathy?". So, err... anyone have any ideas?
Lack of Direction?
howdy pot8o good to see you again!
you really have to ask yourself what is it that you enjoy doing in life, what ideas you sometimes think of but then again think 'nah that wont happen' etc. and then you just have to go for it. the worst thing that you could do would be to stick at uni, get a degree and then work, all doing something you don't want to do. you're not doing the degree for you, you're doing it for your parents. that's a bad move, because chances are you'll end up doing it for the rest of your life...
my first degree after the first year i thought that i didn't want to do it, and that it would be boring etc, so i took a break from uni and went to the uk for a couple of years to work and chill. i think taking at least a year break and seeing places and working is a must, because it gives you an entire new perspective on the equation. you've been going through school for all those years, then you go straight into one of the uk's best universitys. that's a lot of hardcore study without really a break or much freedom. although i think being in the position you are, i would definitely finish the degree. it doesn't mean that you have to work in the field, it just shows potential employers that you have what it takes to get a degree at one of the world's best universitys. this will give you a shedload more credit than anyone else going for the same job!
you are still young, so you don't need to make any choices. when i got back from the uk, i realised that the last thing i wanted to do was work my arse off for some boss that seemed to never do anything, i wanted to be my own boss. that's all, my own boss. i don't care what i'm doing, as long as i'm working my arse off for myself. i started uni again when i was 22. i thought to myself that i would be too old and shit l ike that, but what's a few years compared to the rest of your life! so i'm studying commerce majoring in entrepreneurship, and it's literally the perfect course for me.
i guess you need to work out whether you want to make yourself happy or your parents happy! you will have to think heaps too, maybe you should take a year break and work somewhere, and get that 3rd dimension of perspective. you have to do something that'll excite and challange you, as well as being interesting and enjoyable. there are so many careers out there, there will definitely be a few that would fit the bill, but if you want to work for yourself then the world's your oyster!
lack of direction's fine as long as you're enjoying yourself :)
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mR p0t8o h3d
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thanks for the advice lee! you've really helped put things in perspective... of course short-term i've gotta keep my parents happy cos theyre where the money comes from, and i doubt theyre gonna pay next time round if i drop out of uni now (plus i dont really want my last year of work to be completely wasted).
and yeah, most of the time i have no problem with not having long-term goals and just having a good time n stuff, but recently i've been noticing the good times just aren't so fun any more - things are becoming repetitive, less amusing and even slightly tedious. but hey, maybe that's just cos its winter again... (:
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Himmelstossen
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I was in the same position only far worse and Im still grappling with some of the issues in my life.
I was doing home correspondance uni and that just sucked.. I got depressed etc. Now Im doing an exam to get into UNI as a day student. Not just to study but to socialize. Socializing is a huuuge must for young people. I turned 22 the other day and one of my closest friends is probably going to jail and I've recently found out he's got physcological problems.. this has depressed me alot cause the guy is like a brother to me but he has turned his back on all his friends and family and is no longer the person I knew a a month or two ago.
A bit off track but I have been getting my life in order by working as lee has said. Doing a part time casual farm work job to fund my lifestyle at the gym (btw Fr0d did 55 pound bicep curls last tuesday and might take her up to 60 on friday [mabey] wooot and 210 pound benchpress's on the machine woootage but yeah freeweights gotta work on them but I need a gym buddy D: to spot. My current gym buddy doesn't have a great deal of time to work with me on it so I've only been doing 50kg's probably a 110 pounds I'd say).
Again I got off track.. the point is Im self medicating my social problems by going to the gym 3 times a week while Im at home and 2 twice a week while Im working on the farm. The results have been great not just physically but mentally as well.. I can actually walk down the street and not feel like someones gonna stab me to death (im a tad paranoic and low self esteem)
So yeah do something that you like doing and do something that will help you cope with the future I guess. I wanna be huge ... I wanna be all that I can be so that I can talk to people without having to worry.
I dunno if any of this makes sense but I have been going through a really bad time in my life and only now do I see a little light at the end of my tunnel ;0 Im comin out of my shell I guess.
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mR p0t8o h3d
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