I won't give advice, because I personally hate advice, it's the bane of my existance. I've only got in life a few really good mates, me and sh3p have taken the rough with the smooth and times and were pretty close. There's a few other no names and the rest of the people I call friends, might as well call me Uncle, I'm always looking after them.
So being able to talk about how I was feeling about girls was pretty hard y0. There was one girl, who I liked alot (Michelle) we got on pretty well but in the end even though we never got together, I felt kicked around like a punch bag and that pissed me off pretty good, consequently I nearly kicked the shit out this guy (long story). On reflection being so angry made me feel shit, I'm conditioned to control my anger and to be focused in all situations. And in a meer instant I lost my rag and all point of view other than getting really pissed and smashing something.
In short? I shut myself off, I had female friends but that was that, if sex was in the equation for a one night stand than so be it. But relationships and love was like my own worst enemy. It took me a year or so to simmer down and let go of what happened, in the end I asked out a girl who I'm still with, three years, ha pretty big turn around.
And yea I could see myself with her in a few years, but marriage, I dunno. I'm happy as I am, I'm happy within myself and happy to be in this relationship. We've split about three times now, the longest was about a month or so, for various reasons. Times haven't been easy for both of us, her Mum passed away not so long ago and before that it was a rocky road.
Which is shit, but you have to get on with life right?